found out

I found out today that my dad has prostate cancer. We don't know yet how advanced it is, how treatable it is. We'll know more soon.

I don't know how I feel. But that's a lie. I don't feel much--I'm not worried or scared or sad for him. I just take in the news and move on. Often when we say, "I don't know how I feel," it's often because we really do know how we feel, but the feeling is not the one we wish we had.