2.12.2007

Yawning into his fist

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This afternoon I took off work early and walked down the street to see my therapist. I'm not sure what pseudonym I'll make for him. ...
2.06.2007

Do you actually feel?

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Last night I sat around in my apartment and contemplated going to the orgy. There's this regularly-occuring orgy in some far-flung subur...
1.30.2007

Having poured a stiff one...

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I feel like I'm talking to myself here. The handful of readers I had have likely dissipated. It's been months after all. And rather...
1.27.2007

Sorta thinking

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I forgot all about you. I kinda moved on. This summer I spent at the river, doing poppers, barebacking latinos who barely spoke English born...

Vodka sour, please...

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Pour me a stiff one, I may need to bring this one back...
5.19.2006

convalescing

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I am going away for a while. I am visiting some other cities, on the coast. Just going to hang out and write a bit, maybe buy you some pre...
5.16.2006

Please be tender when you cut me down

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The most beautiful line ever. From Viewpoints on Asphyxiophilia ... PLEASE BE TENDER WHEN YOU CUT ME DOWN by Knud Romer Joergensen, Co...

Autoerotic Asphyxiation

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I have been researching autoerotic asphyxiation for this movie I want to make which will be a lot better than that Ken Park bullshit. Since ...
5.14.2006

Bad Habit

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I have this bad habit wherein I am fascinated by my own blood. When I have a bloody nose or a cut I stand over a sink or something and watch...
5.12.2006

Tell them anyway / and you can make it up / as yooooouuu GOOOOOO!!!!! / I'm already gone now / You were outside just waiting

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I just woke up. I'm sober again. 9 pm We're in the middle of a spring chill. The heat just came on, setting the row of radiators in...
5.10.2006

D and The Secret: rough draft of a section

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A few weeks later The Secret told D he wanted someone old enough to have forgotten being seventeen. ----------- D had not quite forgotten ev...
5.04.2006

psychosociopath

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I realized this morning that I am a big fat sociopathic insane person or even a functioning schizophrenic and that my pathetic attempts to w...
5.01.2006

Coda

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Coda coda coda. Things are draining out of me. So humid and wet out today the whole world was a poultice. My brain is squeezing itself dry w...
4.28.2006

Care of the Self / Killing him

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I think I may have excised the riverbottoms from me, at least for a while. I had to kill a boy first, metaphorically of course, erase him, c...
4.27.2006

Barges

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Got home from work last night at six, immediately took a long nap. Woke up at 7:30, ate a banana, went out cruising at the river bottoms. ...