Just wishing

everyone was wrapped up in their game of trivial pursuit

i had arrived after the game had already started, so i was just sitting there drinking lite beer and being bored

i excused myself and said i was going to go have a cigarette

i wandered around the house and found myself in my ex boyfriend's bedroom

it was dangerous for me to be there but i couldn't help myself

i kicked at some clothes on the floor--did these belong to him or his boyfriend?

the old bed

i was sitting on a desk chair when he was suddenly in the doorway

hello there, what are you doing?

sorry...just wandering around

he looked at me nervously and said, what are you thinking about?

just wishing that things were different, i said

you mean that you are i were back together?

no i said, just wishing that you were someone worth fighting to get back